Filed under: 2008
saw rachel getting married tonight. anne hathaway is wonderful in this. definitely worth checking it out.
first snowfall was today. i’m thrilled. and colder. but better. it’s beautiful.
in other news, i am recovering from the all nighter that left me awake until 7 on monday morning. i am also still gainfull unemployed. i also do not have more money in my account then when i started. i ought to find work faster. sooner. but of course, naturally, as soon as i do, something better will come along. by which i mean something not retail…
i’m eating pumpkin seeds. and procrastinating. it’s what i do well on sunday/monday at 12:58. i have a paper due at some point monday morning.
i’m just having some organizational block right now. i’ve written most of the paper,but it’s very poorly organized. so i’m surfing the web and hoping for mass inspiration. mostly, i’m finding ani videos. but that’s alright.
the red bull is just now starting to kick in. hrm.
kick. kick. kicking in.
i got no illusions about you, and guess what: i never did. when i said, i would take it. i meant as is.
ceci c’est comment je suis au presente.
i am being productive as is possible given the time of…morning?
andrew is working at bridgehead tonight, doing some painting, and i am neither accustomed, nor used to, sleeping alone. combine that with anxieties about weddings, money, school, and schoolwork, and you have a bonafide blogger up at 2:41 in the morning, with a class at 8:30. what am i doing?
right, i’m looking at wedding dresses like they will all be gone tomorrow. i’ve found a few that i a like, most of which have been about a third of our adjusted budget. basically, my father continued to fuck up my finances until it was too late, and now they, by which i mean i, cannot fund our wedding with stocks in my portfolio. oh, i also need to apply for osap, since my resp went to hell in the process. and i need a job so that i can keep paying rent. all this for a crazy little thing called agency.
i’ve replaced finding things quickly with finding things quickly on a budget of 1/4 what we had planned. bahahaha. fuck.
last week was a total cluster. this week is recovery. i have a strange feeling that this will be the first of many late nights of anxiety, school work, and wedding…stuff.
am i nuts to bake my own wedding cake and then ask my mother/andrew’s mother to assemble it the morning of? are we insane to try and make salad for 45 people? well, yes. but what’s that from stopping us?
Filed under: 2008
i am wiped. i was so pleased to see that i do not need to be at work until 8 tomorrow.
steph’s mom passed away on saturday, which is sad, which was to be expected, but which was no less shocking and saddening to me and the rest of the people who knew her. london is calling me. luckily andrew is happy to make this a long (non)-weekend. four or so days in southwestern ontario seems like the last thing i want after the election, but perhaps the first thing that i need–remind me why i don’t agree with my parents politics and such.
but yes, the week was supposed to look like this: election, school, rest, job hunt, school, special engaging speaker at carleton, school.
now it looks like: election.drivetolondon.funeral.schoolwork.spendtimewithpeoplewhichiskindoflikerestingbutnotreally.driveback.jobhunt.groceryshop.
in other words, blurg. i know no one plans their death, but from a purely logistical perspective, blurg. tear. argh. spugh.
Home, the last resort.
Build a castle with an iron door.
Lock the window, pull the shades, the hazed out sun won’t help anyway.
or muddy ones for that matter?
my campaign six weeks of pretending to be a candidate has come to a close. so long and thanks for all the rocks, newfoundland? i have however, come to like the green party’s policies, but perhaps less so their politics. elizabeth may has been quoted several, countless times in the last week and a half as being an advocate for strategic voting, and that canadians should try to unseat the conservative government. she has said, in the past, that she believes that the green party ought to be an advocate for other parties, rather than acting as a real party. we are all allowed to have our own opinions, which are not those expressly of our poltical parties. in fact, i think that’s what blogs are for. but to tell this to reporters, and then try to backpeddle through the mud. no. you cannot do that.
what bothers me more, is the reaction of slapping together statements taken on by the green party staff in ottawa. not only have we been basically saying the same thing for the last five days, not changing a beat, nor telling may to put up or shut up. what’s more is, we have somehow deemed it appropriate for any emails that we get asking why we support a strategic vote to be forwarded to her blackberry. because that is going to help, so much. honestly, i am so frustrated not only with her response, but also with our childess revolt. what will it get us?
oh, right mr. mackay back in parliament. fuck blurg.
the election is now in full swing, and so between working 35 hours or so a week, and going to class and doing readings, i am feeling more than overwhelmed and underpaid, and underblogged.
i received possibly the most fascinating wall post on facebook last week about my participation with the election. a significant other of a friend had posted a note which read along the lines of…
i am so tired of the current political situation and am jealous the united states’ leadership.
therefore i will be voting for the communist party.
what does this say about politics in canada?
well, my snide, smart-ass remark was “perhaps, that you need to participate more”, which i thought was fairly valid…you don’t like it, get involved. in my mind, if do not participate in the election and then spoil your ballot, you have no reason to complain.
his response was something along the lines of, “you are so self-righteous, and your response to my note just proves this. you think you’re so much smarter than everyone and i know you’re running in the election but you should get off your high horse because the (green) party is a joke”
baahahahahahahahaha. i responded with the political jibberish that follows:
firstly, leaders don’t make good government.
secondly, the subprime mortgage crisis is displaying major flaws in the american political system
thirdly, voting for a party that has a goal that does not coincide with those that you believe should be supported with a democracy, does not preclude the party’s exsistence (see: your comment on voting) salvador aillende in chile, for example, was a democraticly elected communist, who did not seize power, but rather was ousted from power by the democratic regime in the united states.
as for self-righteousness, call me what you will, but saying that you will spoil your ballot because you do not agree with the current political parties and their leaders is the definition of self-righteousness.
i never questioned your integrity, but rather the merits of your position, and your ability to take action with regards to your position.
perhaps, if you cannot take criticism, you should refrain from posting blogs which call for rebuttal.
his response follows:
i can take critiscm, but not from people who believe the world revolves around them. speaking down to me and acting like i don’t understand what you are talking about just further proves my point. you think you are smarter, and better, and more informed than everyone. grow up.
nice. so, essentially he didn’t have an argument. further laughing ensued.
just some political personal fun matters.
